Children, Ego Centric, Journal

From my Journal. March 5 or 6 2008

I lay in the presence of god and I can't help but notice all the coffee.
Children start their lives for themselves and it takes time to reinvent the world into something that's larger than the ego.
Even still. The realizeation of other doesn't mean all action is not rooted in the benifet for the Self. For example. "I'm sorry I stayed home late and it upset you because you thought i'd call". This is not yet, necissarily a world-centric (or, at least Beyond-Ego) statement. The apology may be the voice of acknowledging someone else in anohter situation other than their own, but the main instigation for the apology is still to benifet the ego. For example "I feel guilty, I hurt you. I don't like feeling guilty...<an apology will releive me of my guilt>" There, the ego is e/affected by anohter, but still is acting out of a self centered (egocentric) place.

Here in the coffee shop where the dogs walk wihtout leashes and sit on chairs as they share the computors...

"I too, am human", He said. (as i bowed my head and listened.

A child is handed a buscuit and wihtin an instant he places it in his mouth. Its a dangerous world when an object in hand is programmed to go strait into his mouth... What with our plastic beeds and sugar filled muffins.

______ brings insight, like earlier. Iam learning to realize that he sees things so far in adfance, or so far down the path that we are walking on, that we disconnect. His insight sometimes seems insulting, and it is not until more talking or thought, that we meet.  
    He must learn to trace back or retrace his stps. Link Me Now, with his insight that penetrates beyond my current scope.
<I must remember to allow his words a chance to integrate and effect my stance and perspective....>


this is from my journal a month back or two.
i read it and felt like sharing it.
I may not have all teh capitol letters right... partly becuase i dont know, partly cause i dont care and partly cause i tend to capitolize things while i type... for no reason at all.

I do not beleive everyone acts out of an egocentric place alllllll the time. i just mean the specificity of how we define and work with it must continue to be examined, as we examine and expand ourselves.

love be to you.
and love be to me.
sleep well and breathe free.

ali